Too beautiful today!

It is! It is too beautiful to go to work! Granted, I get to spend my time at work mostly outside, but I want to be able to appreciate it. I love my job and my kids that are in my group this week, they are great, but I'm so tired. I am honestly exhausted, and all I want to do is go for a walk in the woods and sit somewhere to read. I have never been so physically active in my life and frankly I am wondering still if I should have taken this job. I'm at a point in my life where I want to dress modestly and femininely (I have prayed about this), but I can't because of my job. I am losing weight at a rapid rate and I cannot afford to! I was already small. I am feeling physically drained and sore even in the morning when I wake up. I don't feel like I am able to give my whole self to these kids because I secretly feel terrible and don't want to be there because of that. Then I feel guilty because I feel that way. I am going to continue to do the best job I can with the best attitude I can, since the kids deserve that, but there is always this dread of coming to work every day. I have tried to get rid of it, maybe not hard enough, but even with eight hours of sleep a night I am just fried! I did not realize how taxing this job could be on my body and spirit. God will get me through the next four weeks, and I am not worried. Just pooped!